I can rarely sleep.
I think I was about 12 or 13 when I can last remember sleeping all the way through the night.
And I certainly can’t sit still.
Slowing down is so, so tough. And, at times, that is a hard way to be. I know it can drive my partner crazy when she wants to just relax and here I am I needing 4 things happening at once.
It also means that I’ll wake up at 4am, my mind racing, and despite being super tired, I just can’t get back to sleep.
And so I get told a lot that I should rest more or slow down. While I’m sure everybody saying this has the best of intentions, it can often leave me feeling like there is something wrong with me, like the way I am is broken.
I think a lot of us, if we’re honest, have parts of ourselves that make us feel like we’re just not enough. That we’re broken.
But today, on thanksgiving, I choose to be thankful for who I am. All of who I am.
Because when I really look at it, it’s those same ‘weaknesses’ that are my strength. And that’s true for most of us.
Those things that we’ve endured, that have taken us apart, those too are the things that separate us, that once survived can give us an entirely unique perspective.
I lost my mother to suicide last year and it is absolutely the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. But I’m far stronger for it. My perspective and how I view life is forever changed.
And I’m certainly not alone in that experience, or ones like it. Today, on Thanksgiving, I want to share a short video I made a while back with a few fellow filmmakers. I asked them about some of the worst times they’d experienced, what has been holding them back, and what they’d want to share with others about their experience.
This is the result.
So if you’ve ever felt like you’re not enough, I’d encourage you to watch this. Choose to your weakness as your strength.